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Hi readers :) Assalamualaikum.


Hey dear, did you know that I'm still waiting for you? Nope, I mean my heart, still waiting for you. Can we get-back together, dear? When we clash that time, I try to forget about you. And yeahh I think I successfully forget about you but it slip my mind.

I can't forget about you. My heart said "No, you can't forget about your love." But my mind said, "It's not important right now, qiela. It can break your heart only." I'm just too confusing about my heart and my mind. Lol what happen to me? Someone please help me.

I afraid when I'm already forget about you but suddenly you come to me and admit it that you still love me. But at the same time, I afraid you already forget about me while I'm here, still waiting for your love. What I need to do right now? I'm so confuse with all this.


Dear you, I know you don't read my blog even my link blog you don't know right? Hm, it's okay. I'm fine with it. But if you read this post, I'm sorry. I know you love me but I think you're not serious about our relationship. Maybe you don't know, many times I cried because of you. I saw many picture of you and that girl. I mean with the same girl. What is that mean?

Maybe you can say, "Sorry, that girl just my classmate. We don't have any relationship at all. We two just a friend." But I just think, is that girl crush on you? Or maybe you're not realized it but many times I think about this. Maybe you can say that I'm just too jealousy with that girl.

Honestly, I'm so jealous when I saw your photo with that girl. Many photo I mean. Hmm, but what can I do? I don't want clash with you but if one day we clash, I know it's my fault. Not your fault. You take care of me but.......

I'm sorry. I know all this are wrong. It's look like I'm playing with your heart. But I just don't know what to do. My heart still and always waiting for him but I don't realized that I'm in a relationship with you. I'm so sorry with all this problems.

I think no one can understand me. No one can understand what I really want. No one can understand what I really want do. I always pray that all this things can settle one day. But maybe it will takes a long time. And yeahh... Every night I'll cry and cry cause I think I'm too stupid cause still waiting for him although I already in a relationship.

Like I said, No one will understand me. And maybe I'm fine with it.

Assalamulaikum.

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